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Rosebud - Traitor

This is my first story for the year and it's a rosebud. I've used a prompt from over at Writers Toybox.
If you're feeling in the mood to wirte and haven't any ideas for a story why not go and look at the prompts there. Something may jump out at you, give you a plot to srart you off.

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Author: Ares

Email: ares13@spin.net.au


Written for Rosebuds at Writers Toybox
Prompt: Traitor

Word count: 384
Unbeta'd, all errors mine alone.



Buffy forgave Xander his betrayal. But she would never forget what he did. She wondered whether it would have made a difference. Would she be dead, or worse yet, undead at Angelus’ hand if Xander had told her the truth: that Willow was attempting to give Angelus back his soul, thus bringing her beloved Angel back? Would she have stayed her hand, would she have tried to stall until Willow came through? Her actions could have been her undoing. It was moot now. Xander hadn’t told her, he had been full of hurt and venom and had made his decision. He had told a lie. She couldn’t blame him. Not then. He had good reason. People had died. People they knew had died. And a piece of her had died when Angel had been sucked into Hell. He had been an integral part of her heart. It had taken Angel coming back from Hell to heal the hole he had left behind.


But now? Here was Xander asking her not to kill the woman he loved. No, not a woman, the demon he loved. The demon had killed a dozen frat boys, let alone the hundreds she had cursed or killed over the course of a thousand years. Where was the self-righteous boy now? Where was the young man who railed at the machination of evil? Where was the boy she knew as Xander who had insisted she kill her demon lover? Gone. Nowhere to be seen. Xander was living her nightmare, only Xander wasn’t the one who had to go kill the monster. Xander was spared the act of shoving a sword through his lover’s chest. What right did he have in asking her this, to stay her hand? He had none. She used his own words against him and he blanched. Willow’s sharp reply, cut off in mid-stream only fuelled her anger. The cat had been let out of the bag. Xander’s betrayal was out in the light of day, and it was ugly.


Buffy knew what she had to do. It was her duty. If she couldn’t save the one she loved, neither could she spare the one Xander loved. Payback’s a bitch, she thought, except Buffy was above such pettiness. Her heart hollow, aching for her friend, she went to kill the beast.


Jan 2013



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Jan. 21st, 2013 09:47 am (UTC)
OH I LOVE THIS. I was always a little annoyed it took this long for Xander to fess up to his lie, Buffy never knew about it before did she?

I fully expect her to have died if she had known Willow was returing Angel's soul, she would have dropped her guard and been on the defensive, rather then the offensive, which is what she needed to do to win. So i didn't begrudge Xander lying, after the fact. Though i was a little annoyed during it.

His double standards about Angel and Anya have always annoyed me, expecially as Anya always had her soul when she cursed those men.

I would have actually liked to see a scene between Angel and Anya talking about the past and how they have changed, i think that would have been nice to see.

anyway, great work.
Jan. 21st, 2013 11:30 am (UTC)
Why thank you. I'm with you. I was very angry at Xander and what he told Buffy in S2. He lied to Buffy. In hindsight it was for the best, but don't forget when she had left Sunnydale Xander never told anyone about his lie, that she may have had to kill Angel because of it. And she had.

Thanks for your feedback, sweetie.
Jan. 21st, 2013 10:34 am (UTC)
Well done, sweetie! A lovely little story.

Yes, Payback's a bitch...

Jan. 21st, 2013 11:32 am (UTC)
Thank you. I'm pleased you like it.

There's not many episodes I like in the later seasons but this was definitely one of the highlights for me. Buffy's speech about her love for Angel in that scene where Xander is begging for her not to kill Anya warmed the cockles of my heart.



Jan. 21st, 2013 02:05 pm (UTC)
Like others have said, I was always annoyed that Xander lied to Buffy, and we know it was to make himself feel better, rather than it any noble reason. As it happens, it was the right thing to do – she would have held back for Willow and probably would have died in the process.

Lovely rosebud, my dear. Thanks for sharing!
Jan. 22nd, 2013 04:58 am (UTC)
Yeah. I was dancing in my seat when Buffy confronted Xander in that episode. I don't know whether in the show she found out about the lie, but I think that she heard enough to make a reasonable deduction.

Thank you for the prompt and thank you for sharing your thoughts.

Jan. 22nd, 2013 03:49 am (UTC)
Saturday January 19 - Monday January 21
User rahirah referenced to your post from Saturday January 19 - Monday January 21 saying: [...] Traitor [...]
Jan. 22nd, 2013 04:41 am (UTC)
Excellent rosebud! Like everyone else here, I hated that Xander lied to Buffy and that it took so long for the lie to be called out. And when it was, the matter was brushed aside quickly - understandable since it has been years, but still annoying. Thinking back on it, perhaps it was for the best that he lied since she could've died while holding back. Nonetheless, a lie is still a lie.

Thank you for the story :)
Jan. 22nd, 2013 05:03 am (UTC)
The show almost glossed it over, didn't they? Willow's retort was cut off mid sentence and it was as if Buffy hadn't a clue. But I think she's a smart Buffy and would have put two and two together.

A lie is still a lie. And it's not the first time Xander lied to Buffy. When he was infected by the hyena spirit he attempted to rape Buffy and then pretended he had no memory of his time under its control. But in a later episode Giles found out that Xander did remember everything. I suppose he was still a teen and he can be forgiven his ways because he was an immature young adult.

To me, IMO, Xander should have at least apologised - both times - to Buffy. It's the least one should do for a friend.

Thank you for reading and giving great feedback.

Jan. 27th, 2013 07:51 am (UTC)
To me, IMO, Xander should have at least apologised - both times - to Buffy.

Yes! What's done is done, but he could've at least apologized for it. However, I don't think he regretted either one of the lies (though he did regret what he did while possessed by the hyena - it was easier for him to pretend he didn't remember so he didn't have to talk about it) and so didn't feel the need to apologize. Ugh, now I'm mad at Xander. I like the guy, more so in the later seasons, but he has a habit of making me angry.
Jan. 27th, 2013 09:13 am (UTC)
Ugh, now I'm mad at Xander. I like the guy, more so in the later seasons, but he has a habit of making me angry.

I hear you. I feel the same way.:~)))

He does do stupid things, and then he goes and does something incredibly brave, sometimes on purpose and sometimes by accident. Buffy can see the best in him and he ought to remember that. He is a lucky guy to have her call him friend.

Jan. 25th, 2013 04:42 pm (UTC)
Oh, you would write a Rosebud about Xander’s lie! Just thinking about it again makes me cringe. I don’t think I’d hated a BTVS character so much than at that point.

But then again, if Xander had told Buffy the truth, what a dilemma she would have been in. We’re rooting for Buffy to find out what Willow is doing, hoping she holds off killing Angel, but torn by the fact if Buffy doesn’t, will Angelus kill her? I think the anger here comes from Xander not giving Buffy the facts, acting selfishly, and thus depriving Buffy of a choice in the matter. At least that’s the way I think of it. In the end there was no alternative. Buffy had to save the world – and herself – but we’re left wondering how different the situation could have been.

I’m not surprised (though disappointed) that Xander never apologized to Buffy as you mentioned, Ares, but then I don’t think Xander was ever sorry for what he did. Not really. From the beginning he was jealous of Angel and never got over it, IMO.

As for Xander’s own demon girlfriend…well, funny how that old double standard rears up when the tables are turned.

Thanks for a great Rosebud, Ares!
Jan. 26th, 2013 03:22 am (UTC)
You like? *g* Sorry if I made you cringe again at Xander...not. heh!

I agree with you. Xander denied Buffy a choice when she was going into battle with Angelus. And he kept very quiet about it for years. Even when the group were wondering where Buffy had gone, did she survive the fight, was she even alive, Xander did not fess up to his lie. And then he dared to berate Buffy when she got back from LA. Grrr! Now I am mad at Xander all over again. Thanks a bunch. :~)))))

Hypocrisy will always come back to bite one in the ass. :~)))) Xander got it back in spades.

Thank you for your lovely feedback.

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